Never give up on something you can’t go a day without thinking about.
Competing has been something that’s been on my bucket list for as long as I can remember. For those of you who don’t know, both of my parents used to compete in bodybuilding back in the day, so I was exposed to this lifestyle from a young age.
It wasn’t until about two years ago when I found my passion for weight lifting did I ever think I would actually step on stage one day.
I started working with a coach back in July of 2018, hoping to step on stage sometime in the near future. I actually wanted to pick a show 12 weeks out from hiring my coach. LOL.
With a lot of big life changes happening one right after another late 2018-early 2018, I felt guilty for putting my wants before other people’s needs. So I chose to step away from working with a coach.
Fast forward to May 2019, when I sent an email in Lauren’s direction, who took me on, and we started a cut, with no show schedule on the table. All I knew at this point was that I needed some discipline again.
A few weeks in, I started to seriously think of this huge dream I put on the back burner again. Being around so many other competitors and like minded people, and watching stories and IG lives of every bikini competition I could find. I was getting the itch.
So I talked with my coach, and we set a game plan. Cut, reverse and then start prep early 2020. It sounds cliche to say that “it feels like that was just yesterday” but the fact that it was four months ago…just seems unreal.
If I were to be in these same shoes 1 year ago, I wouldn’t have been ready for this mentally or physically.
I’ve wasted so much time being fearful of the stupidest things. Sharing my journey, creating content, helping others, competing.
The only positive thing that fear has ever given me, is that it’s an indicator of exactly what I need to do.
We’re about 18 weeks out. I’m happy, strong and feeling grateful for the support system I have and the ability to do this with a coach who I trust wholeheartedly.
I’ve ran long enough. It’s time to fight.
Never give up on something you can’t go a day without thinking about.