That’s a sentence that’s come out of my mouth way too many times since I added this little hole to my body back in 2013.
Because of how teenage me saw it, skinny girls had their belly button pierced, and if I had it pierced then my stomach would be cuter and then I would want to show it off, which would then put me in the same realm as the other skinny beautiful girls...
Right? That’s how that works? If that’s true, that little piece of metal had a big job to do.
It was like that little ring would make my waist look snatched, bring your eye in, and somehow make you think I weighed 10 pounds less than I actually did
Did it work? Probably not. It would be weird if it did.
Sometimes I would even take it out for a day and stare at my stomach and think “I just look so much fatter without it” so I would put that sucker right back in before the hole closed up, because I was fearful of looking on the outside how I felt about myself on the inside.
When was the last time you’ve ever looked at a person with a belly button ring and thought “wow, you know that’s really flattering, they look so much thinner with it pierced” ….LOL PROBABLY NEVER. The thing wasn’t magic Olivia 😂
I made this whole situation up in my mind. It’s not like the belly ring made me drop 10lbs.
I was unhappy with how my stomach looked, thought that getting a jewel to dangle in front of it would cause me to love it, and how I expected that to work is beyond me.
So you’re probably wondering why I’ve still left it in all these years, right? 7 years later, it’s still here, even after a lot of the belly fat has been burned off and melted away.
I kept it in almost in spite of myself thinking that that little piece of metal would impact my self esteem that much.
The belly button ring was like a bandaid on a cut that really needed stitches, it didn’t solve the problem but it helped me not to look at the issue.
But now I see it almost as a tattoo, something to remind me where I used to be, what I used to think and how much I’ve changed since then.
"My belly button ring makes me look skinny”