Everyone has that number in their head. That weight that they felt their best at, for whatever reason.
For me? That number was 105 pounds.
I was always small growing up, but when I was 16 I remember going through a really bad breakup that resulted in me losing about 10 pounds in just a few weeks...but that’s a story for another day.
Little 16-year-old-post-being-dumped-Liv, looked down at the scale to see 105 pounds and for some reason...I loved that number.
I’m 5’2, so I was never at an unhealthy weight for my height. BUT the missing meals because I was crying, going to track practice on an empty stomach because I had no appetite, living off of snacks instead of forcing myself to eat a full meal…I wasn’t thinking of my health at all.
I wasn’t trying to lose weight. I was just a teenage girl who thought she just lost the love of her life.
I think seeing the scale land on those numbers was the only positive thing I had to focus on at the time.
Fast forward a few years later; where I’m sitting in between 130-140lbs. Incredibly uncomfortable and TBH I just wanted to melt into the baggy clothes I was wearing...while still idolizing my body from when I was 16. 🤦🏼♀️
I remember when I started tracking my food on MyFitnessPal for the first time about 4 years ago, I put my goal weight in as 105 pounds…(there’s that number again).
Since then I’ve lost weight, gained some back, lost some again, gained a little back again, and now I’m sitting just under 20lbs away of what I *THOUGHT* my goal weight was.
I wish past me would have known that I didn’t have to hit that to feel awesome. That number on the scale I used to chase was a number I didn’t reach in a healthy way and was never something sustainable for my body long term.
I’m 20 pounds heavier than I ever thought I wanted to be, but I’m also the most CONFIDENT with my body and the STRONGEST I’ve ever been.
I am so thankful that I’ve found this lifestyle. One that gives me the freedom to look on the outside the same way I’ve always felt on the inside 🖤 DM me and I can help you find this freedom too 🤟🏼
I’m still 20 pounds away from my goal weight.